How real is it

Repeating- I’m real I’m real I’m real, this life is real, everything’s real.

Ive always had a hard time realizing I’m real and that I’m in a real world, living a real life. When I look in the mirror I sometimes won’t even recognize myself and it will scare me. I often will look at others and wonder if they are real. I look at my therapist and even wonder if she’s real. this entire world just seems so unrealistic. I don’t know what brings me out of it sometimes but it will randomly hit me and I go into shock like “wtf…I’m actually a person”.

So I saw a 15second video out of nowhere of these two words I’ve never heard of; depersonalization and derealization. I googled to figure out what it was, “Depersonalization is specifically a sense of detachment from oneself and one’s identity. Derealization is when things or people around seem unreal.”. Is this that? I don’t know..I didn’t look further into it because uh it’s kinda scary but then it kinda makes me think ok..I’m not going crazy..this might actually have a name to it but I don’t know.